Hey broham, I'm sorry you've been going through this shit lately. If you ever need anyone to vent to, you've always got at least one person right here, and of course we as a community support you. It was sad to hear that you started turning around in the server and acting up like you were, but it's even more sad knowing why now.
However long you stay gone, and whatever happens, I wish you well, and I do hope that you find a peace within yourself. Don't give up on your studies though; I know it's tough, but you should keep going. You'll thank yourself later when you push yourself through and 'just keep swimming', no matter how strong the tide gets. You can do it, Nazz, I know you can. You're a bright individual and I know you can do it. You might not always feel strong enough to do it, but the strength is always within you. It's up to you to reach inside yourself and utilize that energy to persevere.
Best of luck to you. Sending you the best of vibes.